new begining

well 2day started like any normal day.. woke up with jenna next to me n as shes a lazy girl she was still asleep so i went back to sleep.. ended up getting up well l8 so i havent been job hunting 2day..
last ntie i went to the cinema after work.. i no i cant afford it but in the last few weeks i feel as tho ive been spending more time with simon then i have with jenna so i wanted to do sumthink other than just sitting around my house.. we went to see unleashed which it was an awesome ass kicking film.. which is obvious seeing as its a jet li film. then we went tot eh tap for a quick drink before heading home.. i finally met bens gf on gd terms this time .. it wasnt my jelous i dont liek u for takingmy friends off me kinda thing feelings.. so ti all went gd.. shes a nice girl.. but very loud!!
anyways.. jenna went home to get sum stuff to stop over at mine n i went home aswell obviously..
and as for the confused news.. ive ended it with simon.. why u ask.. im very silly i no... hes like the most perfect guy u cud want to meet.. appart from having dreds that is.. but anyways hes a really gr8 guy.. but theres sumfin missing.. there was no spark between us.. well there was for him but there wasnt for me. i love spending time with him.. but only as a m8.. i didnt see the point in carrying on with a relationship that wasnt goin to go anywhere.. i no thats what i wanted at the begining but its not now.. i want that spark.. i want to b able to be with a guy n everytime i c him get butterflies in my stomach n feel my face getting red.. never thought ild hear myself say that but i spsoe ppl change. im sure ill see sense soon enuff n snap out of it n b like.. what u on with.. meaningless relaionships are the only way forward. hmmm but i shall leave it there b4 i make even more of an ass of myself.
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